January 20, 2011
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Everything I have to say is the same as everything I've said before. I'm getting things done, and I'm tired.
The panic always builds around 10:00. It doesn't matter how much I've accomplished, but when it comes time to start thinking about sleep, my heart starts to race. The feeling isn't gone by morning, but I'm sleepier, slower.
I know this isn't interesting -but I can't think too far outside of it because I'm scared I'll lose sight of something and somehow make everything fall to pieces. I'd rather worry about this overwhelming but ultimately manageable thing (finish the applications, do them well, get them in) than whatever's waiting just outside.
h.
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My favourite thing to do when I'm all panicky at night is to put on the CBC - or if you're online, the BBC. Something about those steady, public radio voices talking about intellectual/cerebral things calms me down and lulls me to sleep. It gives me something to focus on other than my racing thoughts.
x.g.
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